Pause.

I had to stop.

I was digging myself a deeper hole. Causing feelings to further root themselves into my psyche rather than providing them room for escape.

I'm not sure I'll ever be able to let go of these feelings, the regret of losing you.
I don't think I'll ever accept the reality of not being able to find you.

I'm still going to try to update about my life...up to the point of now, but i'm not promising anything. It's something that I want to do but not necessarily something I can make time to accomplish.