Talking. We were just talking.
And then it went to feelings, as it has more and more lately.
he stated that he doesn't know why I'm still around because most females can't deal with his asshole-ish-ness. But that he's glad we get along so well.
Then we were saying goodbye and he messed with my ears.
and i got all flustered, of course.
and he said "It's only fair."
And I said "How is that fair?"
And he said "Well since you're messing with my emotions" in a playful manner.
And I said "whatever. shut up."
And I wasn't bothered by it, until I was driving home. . . and it just hit me
"Messing with my emotions." Really? Messing with his emotions?!
That's the one thing that gets me with him, is that he always seems like he's trying to blame the fact that he has feelings towards me on me. If you don't want to have emotions for a person you either stop yourself from having them or you pretend you don't have them. There are probably other ways as well, but I can't think of them at them moment.
I mean, for crying out loud, he walked back to Corey's to see me/ hang out with my friends and I last night. WALKED. The man is a fucking lazy ass and he walked to me.
I feel bad a times because I didn't mean to make this whole thing complicated. And I didn't want feelings. But I didn't want to have sex with some random dude from work. Yes I did make him get to know me a little first. And yes he's gotten to know me better since the beginning. . . but that wasn't necessary. At least....i don't think it was. Maybe somehow I made it that way. But honestly, I think he just needs to recognize that this is a two person deal, and he has just as much to do with him having feelings as I do. The end.
And then it went to feelings, as it has more and more lately.
he stated that he doesn't know why I'm still around because most females can't deal with his asshole-ish-ness. But that he's glad we get along so well.
Then we were saying goodbye and he messed with my ears.
and i got all flustered, of course.
and he said "It's only fair."
And I said "How is that fair?"
And he said "Well since you're messing with my emotions" in a playful manner.
And I said "whatever. shut up."
And I wasn't bothered by it, until I was driving home. . . and it just hit me
"Messing with my emotions." Really? Messing with his emotions?!
That's the one thing that gets me with him, is that he always seems like he's trying to blame the fact that he has feelings towards me on me. If you don't want to have emotions for a person you either stop yourself from having them or you pretend you don't have them. There are probably other ways as well, but I can't think of them at them moment.
I mean, for crying out loud, he walked back to Corey's to see me/ hang out with my friends and I last night. WALKED. The man is a fucking lazy ass and he walked to me.
I feel bad a times because I didn't mean to make this whole thing complicated. And I didn't want feelings. But I didn't want to have sex with some random dude from work. Yes I did make him get to know me a little first. And yes he's gotten to know me better since the beginning. . . but that wasn't necessary. At least....i don't think it was. Maybe somehow I made it that way. But honestly, I think he just needs to recognize that this is a two person deal, and he has just as much to do with him having feelings as I do. The end.
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